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My name is Jack Simanek - new to 23 years old, new to Chicago, and new to marathons. Throughout my training I’ve been reflecting on the value of good mental health. I am excited to partner with No Shame On U as I have chosen to support their mission by fundraising during my preparation for the upcoming Chicago Marathon in October. 

 I would like to share what MARATHON means to me and how this training journey has given me the opportunity to take a moral inventory of myself. As a numbers guy, M-A-R-A-T-H-O-N and 13-1-18-1-20-8-15-14 are synonymous to me. 

Marathon is for Mindful - 13 

While I run, I am mindful of health, hunger, family, goals, emotions, faith, environment, hydration, career, surroundings, thoughts, anxiety, vices, and growth.

Novak Djokovic- "Mindfulness is an important aspect of my training. It helps me stay in the moment and focus on what I need to do, point by point.”

mArathon is for Although - 1

While I run, although I am mindful sometimes I feel like I am going to fail.

I have concluded there will always be an "although," and it's okay to have those feelings—we're human, after all. I've learned that it's important to acknowledge these emotions and lean into them, rather than turning away. By accepting the fear of failure that comes with the "although", and then recognizing it is a stepping stone to success has been a helpful strategy for me. Running has helped me accept the “although” as normal feelings of doubt and the fear of failure

Albert Einstein - "Failure is success in progress.”

maRathon is for Relax - 18 

While I run, I know that remaining relaxed is critical to my success. I am relaxed when I’m prepared, with friends, at the Free-Throw line, watching a show, in a bath, hydrated, doing yoga, stimulated, committed to a goal, comfortable, stretching, listening to music, supported by family and friends, in control, playing the game, driving with the windows down, well-rested, and healthy

Tom Brady - "You can only control the things you can control, so focus on staying relaxed and in the moment."

marAthon is for Anxious - 1 

While I run, I have reflected on the fact I am anxious when I don’t have control.

Most aspects of life—relationships, emotions, and external events—are beyond our direct control. I've learned that success in my marathon of life lies in focusing on what I can control: my attitude, my responses, my preparation, my support system, and even my breath. By focusing on these areas, I've found an effective way to navigate uncertainty and maintain a sense of calm.

Michael Phelps: "I think the biggest thing is that you have to be honest with yourself. If you're not feeling right, if you're feeling anxious or stressed, it's okay to talk about it. You can't let anxiety control you.”

maraThon is for Teams - 20 

While I run, I think about the teams I have been on and how I would not be where I am without my teammates. As T is the 20th letter of the Alphabet, I would like to share 20 of the teams I have been a part of, which have led me to where I am today. 

Team Simanek Family, Team Herzl Camp, Team Shapiro Family, Team Giolitos & Giordano's, Team Rubin Gilbert BBYO, Team IU AEPi, Team Chinasty, Team Paschal Varsity Basketball, Team North Texas Ruff Ryderz, Team Dynasty, Team KPMG Human Capital/HRBA, Team Walmart Cereal, Team Satori Capital, Team Indiana University ‘23, Team Ozo ‘18, Team Paschal Orchestra, Team College Station/Texas A&M Football, Team adidas, Team Academy 4 Org, Team TCU Athletics

 I am very excited to be “teaming” with No Shame On U raising money for this organization, and supporting their mission eliminating the stigma associated with mental health conditions.

Wayne Gretzky: "You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take, but with great teammates, you get the opportunity to take those shots. My success is a result of my team."

maratHon is for Hate - 8  

While I run, I am aware I hate losing, being wrong, being doubted, being jealous, feeling guilty, hating myself, complaining, and being blamed.

Hatred is a fascinating force, especially when I am on mile 5 of a 26 and realize that the only hatred I am facing is coming from within—something I can control. I'm used to dealing with hate from the crowds, where much of it is beyond my control. But I've found that recognizing my internal "haters" and focusing on what I can control has been transformative. By channeling that negative energy into fuel, I've been able to run faster and push further. There will always be hate in the marathon of life, but by developing strategies to turn it into fuel has been energizing.

Serena Williams: "If they don’t support you when you’re down, then they don’t deserve to be with you when you’re up. The hate I face fuels me to keep going."

marathOn is for Open-minded - 15

While I run, I am open-minded (curious) about myself, my career, meeting new people, when I travel, others' actions, nature vs. nurture, my faith, my behaviors, my biases, others' beliefs, what makes me happy, love, our healthcare, our existence, and our environment

Ted Lasso - “Be Curious, Not Judgmental.”

marathoN is for Numb - 14

While I run, I recognize that I feel numb when I am stressed, get knocked down, am overstimulated, am hurt, can't help out, am tired, overthink, am sick, feel powerless, behave outside of my values, take responsibility for others' emotions, don't take care of myself, don't have a direction, and cut corners.

Feeling numb is frightening. When my internal battery runs out, it can lead to system failures—depression, illness, heightened stress, decreased appetite, etc. When life hits me, and I feel my energy depleting, I’ve discovered it is crucial to pause, take a breath, recharge, and refocus on my purpose – winning the marathon of life. This way, I can function effectively and stay on course.

Ronda Rousey: "After so many hits, you start to feel numb to the pain. But you have to remember why you’re in the fight and keep going."

Overall, I've found that marathon training has given me valuable opportunities to reflect during my longer runs, and it's been incredibly rewarding for my mental health. Setting aside time to be mindful of how I am coaching myself has been essential for a healthier race in the marathon of life. I am excited to run the Chicago Marathon this October and encourage you to donate using the link below. Thank you for your support!

https://secure.lglforms.com/form_engine/s/89feI4dXjvjep0heIlW87w

While using the LINK please select the option to donate “Jack Chicago Marathon” 

Any donation is greatly appreciated as we are all running the MARATHON of life together. Here are some suggested numbers that are meaningful to me. 

Chai - $18 Jack’s # - $22 Marathon - $26.22 Double Chai - $36 Double Jack - $44 Chai Five -$90

Jack Simanek is a 23-year-old who is new to Chicago and marathons.

Making Piece With an Unquiet Mind

Making Piece With an Unquiet Mind

Anyone who wants a role model for wrestling with bipolar disorder must read the autobiography "An Unquiet Mind" by Kay Redfield Jamison.

The book reveals her harrowing challenges and thoughts as she grappled with bipolar disorder, rising to distinguish herself academically at the highest levels. Her journey is detailed in her astounding and revelatory tome published in 1995. She was first diagnosed with the illness in 1975, the same year that she received a PhD in clinical psychology from UCLA.

Jamison is currently the Dalio Professor of Mood Disorders and Professor of Psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine.

She is achingly eloquent in detailing her personal path through bipolar disorder, while interspersing poignant literary quotations that illuminate her disclosures. It is grounded in courage and written as a cogent call to accept bipolar disorder as an adversary that can be managed.

Jamison reveals that she barely had the will to tell her prospective employer, the chairman of the Department of Psychiatry at Hopkins, that she was bipolar and taking lithium, but she decided that she had no ethical choice but to take the leap. They had an interview over lunch at which she disclosed her illness to him. She recalled her trepidation that not only did she have bipolar but she was seeking a medical professorship when she was not an MD. As she was holding her breath, Jamison describes the response to her disclosure:

"Kay dear," the [the chairman] said, "I know you have [bipolar illness]." He paused and then laughed. "If we got rid of all the [bipolar members] on the medical staff school faculty, not only would we have a much smaller faculty, it would be a far more boring one."

So began her distinguished career at Hopkins which continues to this day. The memoir itself was her ultimate coming out to the public at large.

Lithium had been her breakthrough drug. When she was younger, she had tried to stop taking it, but it did not end well. She attempted suicide, but was saved by a phone call from her brother. After this incident, she decided that she would not run the risk of going off lithium again, even though she felt that it frequently emotionally "blunted" her.

Redfield reveals that not all her coming outs were equally successful. In Malibu, while still in California, she told a former colleague, a psychoanalyst, of her condition:

He was, he said, "deeply disappointed." He had thought I was so wonderful, so strong: How could I have attempted suicide? What I had been thinking? I was such an act of cowardice, so selfish.

I realized to my horror, that he was serious. I was absolutely transfixed. His pain at hearing that I had [bipolar] was, it would seem, far worse than mine at actually having it. For a few minutes, I felt like Typhoid Mary.

Jamison is disarmingly frank in speaking of the often eviscerating pain of being severely bipolar. However, through perseverance and sheer grit, she has carved out a stellar career in academia, research, writing, teaching and assisting individuals with mood disorders. She recounts that despite her often desperate struggles, she has lived a full life including loving marriages and loving relationships.

However, she still sometimes is wistful about the exhilaration she felt in many of her manic states, the sheer elation of the spirit and soul:

I look back over my shoulder and feel an intense young girl, and then a volatile and disturbed young woman both with high dreams and restless aspirations: how could one, should one, recapture that intensity or re-experience the glorious moods of dancing all night and into the morning, the gliding through starfields and dancing along the rings of Saturn, the zany manic enthusiasms?

It is not uncommon for people with bipolar disorder who have experienced mania to -- while taking medications such as lithium -- miss the euphoric highs of unrestrained exultation. Jamison, in the end (as noted above), chooses to settle for the "flattened out" moods that come with taking lithium, but still occasionally regrets not experiencing her soaring highs.

Jamison also affirms that love has sustained her after her most dreadful bouts of major depression:

After each seeming death within my mind or heart, love has returned to recreate hope and restore life. It has at its best, made the inherent sadness of life bearable, and its beauty manifest.

She also gives a nod to how bipolar illness has allowed her to explore more of the "limitless corners, with their limitless views of life." Indeed, she offers an extraordinarily insightful and nuanced view on living with bipolar disorder and the personal decisions it demands us to make.

In the end she regards bipolar disorder as "a disease that both kills and gives life. Fire, by its nature, both creates and destroys. 'The force that through the green fuse drives the flower,' wrote Dylan Thomas, 'drives my green age; that blasts the roots of trees.'"

An Unquiet Mind, by Kay Redfield Jamison, Vintage Books.

Mark Karlin is retired, after a long career in advocating against gun violence, as a hospital executive and founder of a progressive website. He graduated from Yale University with an honors degree in English.

Is There a Problem in Finding Ongoing Therapeutic Psychiatric Care? Absolutely. But There Are Alternatives.

Is There a Problem in Finding Ongoing Therapeutic Psychiatric Care? Absolutely. But There Are Alternatives.

I have had a psychiatrist for about four years who has been an ideal match for me. Not only did he find the right cocktail of medicine that finally stabilized my bipolar condition, we became friendly and spent a lot of time talking politics. He always had insights and recommendations when I would become depressed or I was caught in a disabling loop of self-recrimination.

However, now he is retiring.

Recently, he sent out a letter with some potential mental healthcare possibilities after his retirement. Trying to replace my skilled psychiatrist led me to understand the massive shortage of psychiatrists that we are facing.

From his list, I chose the psychiatric division of a medical group affiliated with a large hospital network on the North Shore. I was told that I needed to fill out a form that the practice would consider at a weekly meeting. In addition, I could only apply to be seen if I was referred by a physician in the health system. That is because otherwise they would be overwhelmed with applicants. A psychiatrist was interested in my case, so I received an appointment. However, I was informed that it was only for prescribing meds.

I asked about therapy and was told that there was a waiting list of 550 people and when asked if I wanted to be put on the list, I responded to the administrative assistant that, quite honestly, I would die before I got to the top. She apologized and said that they only had seven psychiatrists and that they couldn't meet the demand.

The Association of American Medical Colleges (AAMC) corroborates my experience by describing shortages of psychiatrists around the country:

"Within a few years, the country will be short between 14,280 and 31,109 psychiatrists, and psychologists, social workers, and others will be overextended as well, experts say.

“We have a chronic shortage of psychiatrists, and it’s going to keep growing,” says Saul Levin, MD, CEO and medical director of the American Psychiatric Association. “People can’t get care. It affects their lives, their ability to work, to socialize, or even to get out of bed.”

Not only is there a shortage of psychiatrists -- for a number of reasons including the fact that an estimated 60% of psychiatrists are over the age of 55 and retiring -- the waiting lists for psychiatric care means that those with mental illness cannot have the opportunity to "shop around" for a psychiatrist who meets their needs. If you are lucky enough to find a psychiatrist who accepts insurance (and for seniors that means Medicare, which most psychiatrists don't accept), many individuals need to grab the appointment, whether or not the psychiatrist is someone they are entirely comfortable with.

I know, from personal experience that I needed treatment options. I had a very affable psychiatrist a few years ago who charged me $140 for a once-every-3 months 20-minute medication consultation, cash or credit card only, and no therapy. Such care did not meet my needs.

The good news is that there are alternatives to psychiatrists for talk therapy, including licensed clinical social workers (LCSW's), licensed professional counselors (LCPC's), psychiatric nurse practitioners, and psychologists (PhD or PsyD's licensed). Psychoanalysts are for long-term intensive commitment. They often do not treat more severe mental illnesses and are generally quite expensive.

With some but not all of these potential choices, you are more likely to receive talk therapy than getting an appointment with a psychiatrist who offers it. And you will have more choices to meet your needs for what you want out of therapy.

Some people with mild mental illness choose their primary care physician for meds, but not for talk therapy. But if you choose to go that route, make sure your doctor is familiar with treating mental illness and has a back-up team. 

In all cases, you must be the strongest advocate for yourself and get care when you are not in a crisis to enable you to prevent a crisis.

In short, not only do those with mental health challenges need to find daily ways to diminish their illness's effects, they must navigate a system of mental health providers that is becoming increasingly short-staffed.

However, there is a good possibility that you will successfully find treatment, but do not limit yourself to seeing a psychiatrist as the only alternative.

Mark Karlin is retired, after a long career in advocating against gun violence, as a hospital executive and founder of a progressive website. He graduated from Yale University with an honors degree in English.

The Inner Peace of Coming Out

The Inner Peace of Coming Out

If I tell someone I have bipolar disorder, the last thing I want is pity.

Pity implies that I have some dreaded disease and that I need thoughts and prayers, as if I am stricken with cancer and about to die. I may have a mental disability, but most of the time my relationships with family and friends are now just fine.

Pity creates an unbalanced relationship in which your friends, family members or colleagues regard you as having a weakness that they have to tiptoe around and treat with kid gloves.

As my psychiatrist told me, I was born with severe bipolar disorder and didn't have a chance to reduce its devastating impact until I was diagnosed and the right cocktail of medications established. Even then, he advised me that I was always going to live with the chance of bipolar moods emerging or maybe not. Coming out is an opportunity to free up the isolation chamber of the mind and integrate oneself into society and build a support network that branches out like roots from a tree and can prevent isolation.

We all face the sometimes daunting question of who to reveal our mental illness to and how.

There are many considerations that require different criteria to tell someone that you have a treatable mental condition.

First, there are immediate and extended family members. Your immediate family may already know that you are struggling to live a healthy life and enjoy yourself as much as you can and are supportive. This, unfortunately, is not always the case.  

Your extended family may be shocked or find themselves regarding you as a "different" person, or they may respond with acceptance. You need to take the stigma that they might attach to you as a teaching opportunity.

Then there is the often intimidating question of coming out to friends. If a friend has a visceral negative reaction and starts ghosting you, then they probably weren't a true friend to begin with. They may feel uncomfortable with being around you and distance themselves, as if having a mental illness is a communicable disease. In short they now regard you as a pariah.

However, it is important to remember that empathetic friends, on the other hand, can help you through your struggle. The disorder might not change the relationship at all when you are in remission. They are invaluable. If you have a relapse, they may provide vital support.

How to handle disclosure in regards to work requires careful reflection. If you are looking to be hired for a position, do you want to casually say at the end of the interview, "By the way, at times I have depression, but I am under treatment, and it shouldn't interfere with my job"?

Or do you want to avoid any possibility of not being hired because of possible prejudicial stigma? Each person must come to their own decision. And if you are hired, do you tell your colleagues?

In most cases, reveal yourself when it seems natural. You don't want to blurt out your disorder out of the blue. If you appear at peace with your disorder, you are conveying that it is nothing that should scare other people off. You want to impart that it is a natural part of your life, not a crisis that might cause alarm.

Of course, there are always people from any of these groups who might regard depression as a self-imposed and fabricated state. They believe that you don't really have a mental illness,  asserting that "temporary melancholy" is just a natural way to respond to the world in these troubled times. They might advise you to "shake it off" and get on with life, 

Whatever your decisions about "coming out," do not think of it through the lens of fear.

Consider it an opportunity to exercise some control over your disorder, allowing you to become liberated from the trepidation that you will be "exposed."

As jazz vocalist Gregory Porter sings:

Take me to the afflicted ones
Take me to the lonely ones
That somehow lost their way

Let them hear me say
I am your friend
Come to my table
Rest here in my garden
You will have a pardon

We all merit a "rest in the garden," and coming out may provide a moment of inner peace that we so richly deserve.

Mark Karlin is retired, after a long career in advocating against gun violence, as a hospital executive and founder of a progressive website. He graduated from Yale University with an honors degree in English.

Maybe that's why they are called Camp Counselors?

Maybe that's why they are called Camp Counselors?

Anyone who works with children and adolescents must be attune to their emotional needs. This is especially true for overnight camps. At many camps there are staff members devoted to the mental health of their population.

Back in the 19’s (as my kids like to call it) that wasn’t the case. Do kids have more mental health problems today than they did 25-50 years ago or are they just not swept under the carpet?

I cannot answer that question. What I can tell you is I remember the first person who “saw” me was a camp counselor at a Jewish overnight camp.  In two weeks, she picked up on two problematic behaviors: frequent stomach aches requiring the attention of the nurse and self deprecation as humor.

One Shabbat we took a walk, and she asked me,

“Why do you only make jokes about yourself?”

“Why do you always hold your stomach?”

“Why did you tear up that letter from home?”

She taught me the phrase “low self-esteem” and explained that I had an inaccurate picture of myself. Knowing that my family had drawn the picture, I could see she was unsure of what to do next.

After her next day off, Taryn brought me a journal to write in. “I want you to write five positive thoughts about yourself every day,” she said. “Then you can see yourself as everyone else sees you.”

I honestly don’t remember what happened next - if I wrote in the journal or not. As an adult, I can recognize that while Taryn was well meaning, perhaps she was a bit out of bounds. Today, we’d tell Taryn to bring her concerns about me to someone with more qualifications. I would say the same.

But that doesn’t change my experience: Taryn in identifying that the way I felt about myself was not normal and that the way my family spoke about me was inappropriate, and as I’ve come to understand, abusive, was empowering. She couldn’t take away my pain, but she started my journey of change that began as a little girl and continues every day of my life.

So thank you to all of the camp counselors, social workers, unit heads, assistants, all of you who help kids, “see them,” and do so much. You are the unsung heroes of summer and we appreciate you.

-anonymous is a writer and teacher who has struggled with anxiety, depression and body dysmorphia since the 19’s.